out-in-wonderland asked: wait, i know that life sucks a lot right now, and i've been there before, trust me, but just don't do anything you'll regret, like cutting or even worse. i'm not going to tell you to get over it, or anything like that because it's pointless and i know that, but just don't harm yourself or anyone else. you can be strong. you can beat this.

thank you for this. I won’t harm myself or anyone, don’t worry. I’ve never been one to think that “masking” pain (either it be with self-harm, drugs, alcohol) is a solution, i want to be able to confront this pain, to be like “fuck you pain, just let me live happily”, but it’s so so so hard. I’m just gonna have to hold on until I moved away in 2 years, hopefully things will get better x

I hate breaking down in tears. It makes me feel so incredibly weak. But I think i’ve been holding it in for such a long time now, I finally broke down tonight, out of the blue, just like that.
I’m so fucking tired of putting on a fake smile everyday when I am clearly so unhappy with my life right now. I push everyone away, I lost every person that was ever close to me, that knew me more than I knew myself. Every person I want to be physically close to either lives 1000000 miles away or just doesn’t talk to me anymore. I honestly feel lonely, even though I have amazing friends and a supportive family, I feel incredibly alone. I miss my past, when I felt like I fit in. I hate highschool, the people and the classes literally are becoming the death of me, I hate almost every single fuckface that’s in my grade. I act all nice and sweet around them but I truly think they are the stupidest and worst teenagers I’ve ever met, ever. Being the new girl sucks, I want to be back in my old high school or even in my junior high, where I had a big group of friends that I adored and could count on and I actually felt like that was were I was supposed to be, like I belonged. And I love my good friends here but let’s face it, they’d be just as happy with me out of the picture, they all either have a boyfriend or another group of friends that they love x10000 times than me…

Why can’t I feel like I belong ? I want to leave this fucking shit town, more than anything. This break down just proved to me that I just can’t do this, I don’t have the strenght to fight anymore.

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